I read a book called "The 4th Wave" by Ilya Stogov, about the band Psychea and the "alternative" scene in general.
The ideas in the book are simple. It's readable, since the book is short. But there's no need to read it, because everything is clear anyway. It's already obvious that your personal freedom means problems for other people and their hostility. And so, whether you wreck your life or not, things won't get much better. The author seems to be trying to say that you should wreck it, but he himself understands that nothing will come of it.
As for me, right now I'm hoping that resigning myself to it and somehow living a more or less ordinary life is also a tolerable option. But it's still sad.